Layered Conjure for Depression

Before getting to the practicals, an explanation — and a disclaimer: There are any number of people in the occult, magical, spiritual, New Age, and New Thought economy of today claiming instant or at least easy relief from anxiety, depression, and other characteristic mental, emotional, and neurological maladies of our age. This is not that. I have my own hypotheses about what these things are and how they interact — how the mental, emotional, and neurological arise from, descend into, and mutually support one another. This is not the place to discuss that in any depth, but it bears mentioning that while I am far from being a materialist, I am also not an idealist: mental and physical states are both real on their own terms, and not only can but perpetually do cause and change one another. To put that into usable terms for present purposes, the mind can change the brain at least as well as the brain can change the mind.

The claim I make for the magical material which follows is this: it worked for me. Like, a lot. It isn’t the only thing I did, but I did it during a very deep depression and it brought me out of it with some significant insights into the nature of my own depressive experiences. For relevant history, I have been diagnosed with depression but have never been medicated for it and have preferred to find ways to avoid medication. I hold no judgment for or against those who are or have been so medicated, and the following is not intended to be a direct alternative to any sort of treatment as much as it is another tool to have in the utility belt. Depression, after all, is rarely one thing or even one kind of thing; it is a host of events in and out of the brain which roil together to form a set of subjective experiences which we categorize with the word “depression”. The usual legal boilerplate of “talk to your doctor, counselor, etc., etc.” applies here.

While a large discussion, it is also worth mentioning here that sadness and even depression are natural; there is nothing inherently “wrong” with either of them. From the perspective of Yoga, they are just more vrttis, mere perturbations in the substance of the mind, and are not essential to our being. The purpose of the below practices is not to flatten out experience, but to expand it. Depression is itself a flattening-out of experience; it is well, then, if we learn to consider happiness not as an unchanging state to which we aspire nor as a delusional or unrealistic view of life’s ups and downs, but as a broadening, deepening, and all-round expanding of experience and of healthy activity in the mind in the midst of those very ups and downs. It is for this reason that we invoke Jupiter in the work below; astrologically, Jupiter rules all sweet things as well as expansion and lightening.


I call these simple spells a “layered” approach because while each one may be of help separately (and they may be used separately as “maintenance”), they have a cumulative impact when used one after the other, either all at once or spread out over a week or so. I will place them below in the order in which I suggest using them as a total protocol; they build best this way, moving from “first aid” to long-term impact.

Again, this is how I have used these spells and made notes on their short- and long-term effects. If you choose to experiment with them, I welcome field notes.


Daily Habits: If you do not already have a regular program of moderate physical exercise, time spent out of doors in natural environs, and both mental and physical relaxation, I suggest incorporating such habits as soon as possible. The key, though, is to ensure that these do not become further sources of stress; don’t try to add them all at once, but incorporate one or another of them as you can, establishing it as your new “normal” before concerning yourself with the rest.

Jupiter Oil: There are a variety of possible recipes for many purposes related to the planet Jupiter. If you prefer, purchase Jupiter or Prosperity Oil from a trusted producer of magical wares. If you wish to make your own for present purposes, a simple recipe is benzoin and allspice steeped in sesame oil, adding all ingredients together in a canning jar in the day and hour of Jupiter or during a good Jupiter election, then “birthed” on such a time at least 1 week later (ideally at least 40 days later).

Purification Baths: Whether as a soaking bath or a standing bath, use some sort of purifying bath at least three days in a row. A simple mixture of salt, Epsom salt, and baking soda makes a good choice. Any simple prayer or mantra of purification, healing, and alignment is good for activating the bath; sincerity is more important than fancy words. My prayer for this and everything following was something like, “I am drained of sadness and despair, filled with happiness and purpose, with the wisdom to see missteps before they arise, and with prosperity within and without.”

Ganapati Candle: Draw the yantra pictured below on a fireproof surface, etch it onto copper plate, or draw it on paper to be placed below a fireproof surface. Dress a white 7-day candle with Jupiter Oil, frankincense, marjoram, cinnamon, and allspice. Place the candle over the yantra (on a fireproof surface as appropriate to your set-up). Activate the dressed candle with the mantra Om Gam Ganapataye Namah, then light it and pray for relief and lightening in your body and mind. Allow the candle to burn down (safely!).2019-11_Ganapati_Yantra_1-18.eps

Lightening Bath: Make a very strong tea of bay leaf, marjoram, and frankincense. Once steeped, add a drop or two of Florida Water (or a favorite cologne or perfume with good associations for you). Allow this to cool to a safe temperature. Stand in your shower or bathtub and massage your body, from the crown of your head down with especial attention paid to the back of the neck, the middle of the chest, the solar plexus, and the lower back, with wildflower or orange flower honey. Take a warm shower to rinse the honey from your hair and skin. Turn the water off and pour the now-cool tea over your head, neck, and shoulders, allowing it to flow over as much of your body as possible. As you conduct all of the above, from brewing the tea to pouring it over yourself, pray to be lightened in body and mind and relieved of your depression. Allow yourself to air dry before getting dressed. Do not towel off! If you must, you may wear a bathrobe or the like, but try to allow the tea to dry on your skin as much as you can. This is best done in the evening so that you can sleep with the dried tea on you, showering if necessary the following morning.

Jupiter Offerings: Make offerings to Lord Brhaspati (Jupiter). Sweet foods may be offered to food banks, or money donated to them, in the name of Brhaspati. Frankincense and/or sandalwood and candles dressed in Jupiter Oil may be burned as offerings in the home. The Jupiter mantra Om Brm Brhaspataye Namah may be chanted when making these offerings, ideally on a Thursday in the hour of Jupiter though this is not essential. Consider making such offerings a weekly or monthly habit.

Tea: Periodically enjoy a cup of marjoram and frankincense tea sweetened with wildflower or orange blossom tea. (If the flavors of marjoram and/or frankincense are too strong for you, consider using less of them in a mix with your favorite tea, especially a masala chai blend or chamomile.


Much of the preceding can be expanded upon and deepened in a variety of ways. Those with a deep knowledge of astrology, for instance, may take advantage of Jovian astrological elections, while an herbalist can produce yet more nuanced teas and baths. These methods are intended as suggestions and an overall guide to applying such nested magical technologies. As I said before, field notes are appreciated as they may be of aid to someone else.

Contra Traditionalism

The whole modern world has divided itself into Conservatives and Progressives. The business of Progressives is to go on making mistakes. The business of Conservatives is to prevent mistakes from being corrected. Even when the revolutionist might himself repent of his revolution, the traditionalist is already defending it as part of his tradition. Thus we have two great types — the advanced person who rushes us into ruin, and the retrospective person who admires the ruins. ~ G.K. Chesterton (Illustrated London News, 1924)

If you’ve been here a while, you know that I once had a degree of sympathy for Traditionalism. While never calling myself a Traditionalist, I read with interest many of the theologians, metaphysicians, artists, and poets who fell into or helped to guide this particular school of thought. While I can certainly say that I learned a lot from them, most of what I learned was more to do with my own mental tendencies as, quite frankly, most of what the Traditionalists have to “teach” is misleading.

For those of you who are not familiar with the writings of the Traditionalists — notable among them being Rene Guenon, Ananda Coomaraswamy, and Julius Evola — it may be worth pausing for a definition, or at least a description. As there is a lot of variation to their particular expressions, it isn’t easy to completely encapsulate what Traditionalism teaches, but it can be generalized to two points: Perennialism and perversion.

Perennialism is the notion that all of human religion, metaphysics, ethics, and spirituality sprang ultimately from a single Perennial Philosophy, the one true original universal religion which was itself a revelation of God. The idea of Perennialism has a long pedigree, arising more or less from a Western occult reinterpretation of the Indian notion of Sanatana Dharma. The major difference between Perennialism and Sanatana Dharma, however, is that Sanatana Dharma can never be fully encompassed by the intellect, as it is simply “the way things are” whether we agree or not, while the Perennial Philosophy is entirely intellectual and can be disagreed with or disregarded — albeit, to hear Traditionalists speak of it, to the detriment of all human values. This brings us to the second point.

Traditionalism posits that ever since some distant Golden Age, humanity has been descending further and further into its own ignorance, away from the purity of the Perennial Philosophy and toward absolute moral, spiritual, and intellectual degradation. This, of course, resembles H.P. Blavatsky’s misreading of the Indian cosmological and astrological idea of the Yugas, or ages of civilization during which human civilization descends from a more spiritualized Age of Truth through to an Age of Darkness.

On the surface, the doctrine of Yugas sounds identical to the Ages of Traditionalism. Traditionalism, however, dwells on the increasing perversion of the Dark Age (often even borrowing the phrase Kali Yuga in discussing it) to the exclusion of anything positive about it, taking a more or less eschatological lens to all human questions. In Hindu and Buddhist discussions of the Yugas, they are seen as a descending and ascending cycle, something like a sine wave moving along an overall helical direction, rather than as a straight line or unbreakable circle. Even where Traditionalism acknowledges the cyclical nature of the Ages, it prefers a doom-and-gloom righteousness approaching self-martyrdom. For the Hindu mind, Yugas point to broad trends which may or may not hold in particular places and times and which, in any case, come with both positive and negative developments. It is acknowledged at all times that the Age of Truth was not what a Western thinker would call Utopia — that there were bad actors and flawed people in positions of power even then, but that on balance leaders trended toward genuine justice and spiritual values in line with Dharma, the nature of what is. It is further stated even in the most legalistic of Hindu texts that the actions of humans can turn any time and place into a pocket of the Age of Truth even in the Age of Darkness, and vice versa.

Traditionalism may thus be understood by its dogmatism in approaching doctrines it borrows from elsewhere, especially when those sources are far less rigid about the same ideas. Dogmatism is perhaps inevitable in a school of religious thought which calls itself “Traditionalism”, but we do have a helpful counter-example in the form of Frithjof Schuon.

Though a one-time student of Guenon, and frequently referenced by Evola (in his later writings, as both Evola and Guenon were considerably older than Schuon), Schuon rejected the title of Traditionalist, preferring to refer to himself as a Perennialist. The distinction is subtle but significant of a major doctrinal break: Schuon was devoted to the Divine Feminine.

Where other Traditionalists were misogynists and racists — Guenon less so, but Evola overtly and, I add from personal distaste, vituperatively. Apologists to this day find clever ways around Evola’s language on race and sex, but if you simply read the man’s words, he tells the story himself in the same way that Crowley’s abusiveness and drug addiction are obvious to everyone but those who deify the man. Schuon’s interpretations of race and gender may not look especially progressive by the standards of an urban American in 2019, but Schuon was very clear on the point that none of the traits which can be ascribed to a gender, sexual orientation, culture, religion, or ethnicity is exclusive to them but is rather symbolized by them. One runs the risk, here, of accidentally dehumanizing people in using them as symbols, but Schuon was a step ahead here, as well: every individual, for Schuon, is simultaneously an individual and a showing-forth of certain particular divine functions. The spiritual responsibility of the individual is therefore to fully integrate their respective divine functions and from there to reach inward for all of the others, expanding rather than contracting their sense of identity. For these purposes, Schuon passionately threw himself into not only dry intellectual practices but also into the sweet ocean of devotional worship.

Comparing Schuon to the Traditionalists is like comparing an arid desert to a lush rain forest. Both have their dangers and their beauties, but the desert of Evola is not fit for our kind of life. Evola, it has been noted by certain practicing magicians, borrowed extensively from the magical practices of Aleister Crowley and the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, both of which focus intensively upon the Solar Intelligence. The Sun can certainly bring illumination, but in Jyotish we point out that the Sun’s can be a harsh and drying heat; it desiccates and mummifies, preserving a shell. When combined with the sweet expansiveness of Jupiter, the beauty of Venus, and the cooling wet of the Moon, the Sun’s light and heat enliven.

Where Schuon took some core ideas from Traditionalism and jail broke them (an effort also engaged in by Aldous Huxley and Schuon’s own student Huston Smith), the partisans of Traditionalism-proper maintain the very sort of unreflective conservatism critiqued so pointedly by Chesterton.

Mind-Body Unity & Yoga

I’ve written before about Hatha-Yoga and its uses, so I won’t retread that ground here. But a commonly stated “goal of yoga” found in popular publications and classes on the topic has been coming more and more to the forefront, or at least more and more to my attention, of late: the goal of “uniting” mind and body or, occasionally, mind, body, and spirit. “Yoga” famously refers to a unitive experience and the practices which can get you there, but this is often left vague enough that people fill in the blanks of exactly what is being united with what, and stressed Americans have every reason to desire bringing their bodies, intellects, and emotions into some sort of parity, so naturally enough the confusion starts that this must be what we mean by “yoga”. Here, however, we have a limited and limiting redefinition of a term and a set of techniques with much broader and deeper application. It isn’t wrong so much as it is self-constraining.

Trendy money-makers like “hot yoga”, “acro-yoga”, “competitive yoga”, and what seems like the new cool kid, “embodied yoga”, all focus to some extent on drawing the mind and body together or recognizing them as an inextricable whole. Again, there’s nothing inherently wrong with this view — for as long as we are in bodies, we do best to treat our whole apparatus as a unity so as to keep everything functioning as well as possible. But no traditional school of Yoga philosophy places much emphasis on this idea; it’s almost assumed at the outset that you already believe in such a unity. Consider that India, Tibet, Nepal, Thailand, and China did not (bless their good fortune!) have to deal with the likes of Plato, Aristotle, or Descarte. The dualistic philosophies of India and China were never dualistic in the way that Western philosophies were (and are).

Instead, the emphasis in much traditional Yoga — perhaps especially the “classical” Yoga of Sage Patanjali — is the deliberate separation of consciousness and body. The process of Patanjali’s Yoga is of gradually and carefully teasing apart the various layers of individual selfhood starting with the brute physicality of the elements and moving inward to the subtle ego at the heart of the individual’s experience of Nature Herself. A variety of practical methods are presented in Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras and detailed further in its more well-known commentaries (often published with it in its better editions and translations). All of this may seem to the modern eye as quite anti-body or even anti-cosmic.

Though Patanjala and Vedic purists might disagree, Yoga is inextricably Tantric: it is rooted in the experience of freedom inherent in the individual. Yet Tantra is not at all anti-body or anti-cosmic. Where, then, does Patanjali’s dualism come from?

I assert as a practitioner of many of Patanjali’s techniques that the dualism of Samkhya and of Patanjali’s Sutras is provisional rather than absolute; it is a phenomenological conceit rather than an ontological absolute and is presented as a conceptual tool for discursive meditation. In the religio-philosophical milieu of Sage Kapila — the first to codify classical Samkhya metaphysics, though certainly not its originator — and Sage Patanjali, mind-body unity would have been the baseline assumption and the common experience. It was necessary, therefore, to provide the prospective sadhaka with a set of mental tools allowing them to tease apart the layers of their own experience in order to find the seed-consciousness at their own core. This is still an extraordinarily powerful toolkit for the practitioner!

My own Natha tradition, however, includes methods which are much more apparently friendly toward physicality. Sri Gurudev Matsyendranath (known also as Maccendranath and, especially among Buddhists, as Minapa) is explicitly associated with Kaula Tantra, a ritual-heavy form of Vama Tantra which can include the consumption of “forbidden” substances (meat, liquor, etc.) and absorption in meditative and worshipful sex; Sri Gorakhnath (aka Gorakshanath), Matsyendra’s close disciple, presented a view of Hatha-Yoga emphasizing not the mere physicality of the body but the nondual spirituality of the whole of Creation — in which he did not include the body so much as he included the whole cosmos into the body of the individual itself! Future writings will explore this idea more in its practical implications and applications, but for now I let it stand in all its starkness.

On the surface, this seems like a contradiction in the Yogi Sampradaya — some of our forebears presenting an anti-cosmic approach and others a life-affirming one. But in the practice of Yoga we find the solution, quite literally as the distinctions dissolve in the open experience of what we may as well call Buddha Nature, the Power of Siva, or the Infinite Space of the Unconditioned Self. For so long as we are subject to Karma, for so long as we are within patterns left to play out, our minds will have different needs at different times. If I am caught within a pit of mind/body dualism, I may escape it by way of physically-oriented practices which demonstrate their energetic union; if I am instead trapped by a misunderstanding of my body as a mere shell or prison, I may make better progress by experiencing my consciousness as formless consciousness. I hasten to add that neither of these is absolute, neither captures Reality, yet experience shows that neither can be denied.

Comfort With Ambiguity

Remember, you alone in-dwell all things always. When you say you meditate, you meditate on something other than yourself; but then, you divide the indivisible. Can you? ~ Avadhuta Gita I:12

If you know me personally, are connected with me on Facebook, or have been following my writing for a while, you are probably aware that I have changed my name several times over the past 13 years. From my legal birth name, to the pen name under which my first book was published (Nicholas Graham, if you’re curious, and God do I need to get back to writing what ought to be my second book), to my Hindu name, to now my name as an initiated Nath Yogi, I tear through monickers like a comedian through Twitter controversies. Even my girlfriend doesn’t bother keeping up anymore; she just calls me Beard, after my most prominent physical feature. I really do think that Vijnananath will stick, though, as it is not emblematic of where I am at any given moment in time but, so to say, of my spiritual career in toto. As soon as it was given to me — repeated to me five times at my initiation — it was like being struck, not by lightning but by a simple fact, like when you wake up on a Fall morning and realize, “It’s cold in here,” or like the first bite of a dessert you’ve never tried before but which is immediately comforting. Nevertheless, I do not care which of these many names (and even more nicknames which have come and gone over the years) any given person chooses to call me. One friend who knew me as Nicholas up until it was Candra told me that, as with marriage here in the US, you get one free name change, so he’s going to call me Candra until one of us dies or until I pay him to change his mental records. Fair enough. I wear all these names, but I wear them lightly.

I’ve also, like many ardent seekers in the world today who grow up in non-religious or only nominally religious households, been through a number of religious practices. Wicca, Druidry, Hermeticism, magical agnosticism, mystical Christianity, Christian Gnosticism, orthodox Saiva Hinduism, and now what I shudder to call “Nathism” but I don’t have a better word — all of these, and more tangents besides, have been spiritual stopovers on my way to “here”. I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with religion: I love the idea (ideal) of rooted traditions which can serve as home bases for deeper, more dangerous explorations, but authoritarianism and claims of both exclusivity and universality grate upon me like rubbing a cat’s fur against the grain. I’m not opposed to dogma in the classical sense of teachings passed down through time, but these teachings are only useful when they are treated as a frame for experience rather than as a completed structure.

In my practice of Yoga and Tantra, one of the biggest changes I’ve experienced has been a decreasing concern with self-identifiers. Sure, I still have my opinions (some altogether too strong for the triviality of the topic), but when I was younger I lived by the labels I applied to myself. I couldn’t just have an anti-authoritarian outlook; I was an Anarchist. I couldn’t admire the mystical and ethical teachings of Jesus; I was a Christian. And so on. I do not intend to tell anybody else what they should or should not jettison in this way, but there is a core message I think it is well worth keeping in mind — it all has to go one day, so it’s best to wear it like a scarf rather than a manacle.

Let’s be clear, of course, that this is an ongoing introspective process related, once again, to our old friends the Kleshas as well as the social conditioning which grows from and takes advantage of them. I may write more on this one day, but I am very much of the mind that social pressure, whether exerted by one person or by an entire culture, is something like the interaction of the balance of kleshas among all the people involved. The objective needn’t be — in fact, cannot be without a series of psychotic breaks — the dissolution of all self-identifiers, but the routine examination of them. When I tell myself that I am, say, an American, what does that mean? Does it close me off to certain things? Does it open me up to other things? How has any of that benefited me? Does it continue to benefit me, or is it getting in my way? Do I need to toss it entirely, or do I only need to soften the edges a bit? And so on.

The hard part is to realize that this applies to every story we tell about ourselves, no matter how justified we think it is at a glance. If I call myself traumatized, depressed, anxious, poor, weak, wrathful, a victim… These all carry a social cache, often negative but sometimes with a paradoxical “net gain”, depending on the circles in which you travel. Looking deeply into these implications and what we gain and lose by these interactions can be a multilayered lesson, but one which is extremely painful as we have to tear away and drop what does not actually serve us but which brings us some shallow sort of respectability or the sort of armor which in the short term protects us from criticism but in the long term insulates us against learning.

There is not and need not be any particular technique or procedure for navigating this labyrinth. Like any labyrinth, as opposed to maze, all you need to do is keep well in the mind the direction of movement and commit to it. In short, radical self-honesty is tool, process, and product. The technical language of Yoga does a great job of pointing out a lot of blind spots, but in some areas such as this we do better with naked simplicity.

This principle applies well beyond our own individual identities. Just as we reify our own little selves by taking too seriously our various linguistic games, we do the same with all of our experiences. Western philosophy has dead-ended itself time and again by obsessing over divisions of “object” and “subject”, of inner and outer, and so forth. It isn’t that these questions aren’t interesting, but in spite of the scientific method’s straining to the contrary there is at base no division between experiencer and experienced, only a provisional division we draw for utilitarian purposes. But here is why we emphasize the “inner” in Yoga: experience is always filtered through our own self-conception, conscious or not. In order, therefore, to obtain a clean experience, the mirror by which that experience is apprehended must also be clean. This is the real meaning of “purity” in Yoga and Tantra; it is not an abstract idea, nor merely to please a deity, but is instead a recognition of the nature of our own mind. From that place, experience is natural, spontaneous. We stop demanding a logical explanation — without being closed to one if it should prove to exist. Analysis ceases to be “cutting apart”, synthesis is no longer necessary, and pat answers reveal their emptiness. We are left with what is.

“Ferocious: A Folk Tantric Manual on the Sapta Matrika Cult” — A Book Review

Ferocious: A Folk Tantric Manual on the Sapta Matrika Cult
by The Sepulcher Society
2019, Theion Publishing (Germany)

My mentor Sri Vijayanath once advised me when I was divesting of a lot of books with the criteria he uses for that purpose: 1) Will I ever want to repurchase this if I get rid of it? and; 2) Does it inspire my practice? I have also begun to use this as a metric when buying books. You can’t always know in advance, of course, but some books just cry out to be enshrined in a permanent place on my shelves. These days, I rarely spring for $50+ dollar “boutique” occult books, but I knew immediately that this one was for me.

Ferocious: A Folk Tantric Manual on the Sapta Matrika Cult, authored anonymously under the collective name the Sepulcher Society, is as it says on the tin: a practical, hands-on, manual for building a devotional-magical (which is to say, Tantric) relationship with one or all of these peculiar and powerful folk Goddesses. Let’s break that title down a bit.

Folk Tantra is the devotion and the magic of the people. Anyone with the devotion and the will to do it can approach these deities, regardless of religious background, initiations (or lack thereof), caste, class, or nationality. These practices can get as expensive and fancy as you can make them (and, of course, the greater your means, the more the deities will expect of you here), but remain fundamentally “earthy”. Instructions in this and other books of folk Tantra for creating one’s own statues of the deity do not demand a great deal of artistic skill, and remind me of the common practice of setting up any oblong stone to worship Shiva, or else to create a lingam from local clay. And this brings us to manual, for Ferocious is certainly a book meant to be lived rather than merely read. Sure, the academic or the merely curious would get plenty from giving it a read, learning a lot about the Sapta Matrikas and their worship, as well as Tantra broadly speaking, but for all the real scholarship behind it the book is not for scholars alone. It is a book of meat and bone. Even the artwork has blood coursing through it, the soul of having met the Goddesses in the dark woods and the feeling of their claws in one’s life.

The Sapta Matrikas are often worshiped as a group, though each of them has Her own devotees as well; some of them are more individually famous and their cults more widespread than others, but the Matrikas are all well attested in India and increasingly abroad. “Matrika” means something like “small mother”, which indicates both the nature of the Goddesses as well as how their devotees commonly relate to them. They are what scholars might call Shakta Goddesses, which is to say Goddesses commonly worshiped by Tantric devotees of Adi Shakti, the Great Divine Power Whom Shaktas consider to be the Supreme Being. They are therefore often considered to be projections of Her — though this should not be confused with the “soft polytheism” often discussed in Western Neopagan circles. Much as Hinduism does not fit neatly into Western academic ideas of dualist, nondualist, monotheist, or polytheist religion, neither do ideas of “soft” and “hard” polytheism entirely work. A worshiper of, say, Vaishnavi (one of the Matrikas) may simultaneously recognize Her as a member of the Matrikas, as a hypostasis of Adi Shakti, as a distinct individual Goddess with Her own personality, appearance, and agenda, and as the Supreme Being Herself. To a Christian or even a Western Pagan, this may sound like a bundle of contradictions; a theologian (mono- or poly-) insists: Pick one, dammit! But for many a Hindu, there is no contradiction at all. If I, too, am a projection of the Absolute Power yet know myself as an individual, what’s to stop a God or Goddess from having that same experience, albeit more deeply on both counts? This is, as it were, the Tantric approach to consciousness at every level of apparent complexity.

The descriptions of the Goddesses are very thorough. A sensitive reader will know immediately if any of the Matrikas are calling out to them — if not immediately from the art, then from the imagery, myths, and mantras. I was very pleasantly surprised to see the inclusion of astrological associations. As an astrologer myself, it’s good to know that information, but for the devotee or operative magician the Matrikas can be a key to productively working with the powers of the planets in their more difficult aspects. Moreover, this is a true grimoire in that it does not shy away from those methods which might be called “spell casting”: engaging with the Matrikas and their associated powers for bringing about changes both inner and outer, either directly or through the mediation of various physical processes and materials which a reader would very much be forgiven for calling witchcraft.

Several years ago, Sri Vijayanath had given me a mantra for Chamunda — one of the Matrikas — and I have been building a relationship with Her ever since. I therefore already had much of the content specifically for Her found in Ferocious, but it also helped me to place Her within the broader context of Her Sister Goddesses. The Matrikas, whether approached as unique individual deities, as the embodiments of the forces of the more “orthodox” deities to whom They correspond, or as the fierce projections of the Great Shakti, are not deities with a light touch. They do not work through subtlety and they do not leave those who petition them for aid untouched. Chamunda has spent the past couple of years reworking me from the inside out, and She has been clear and obvious about it every step of the way (not to say that I’ve always known what was going on until the dust settled). It was therefore refreshing to find a book which does not try to repaint the Matrikas as gentle mothers. If you choose to work with the Matrikas together or individually, heed the warnings given! They are not “evil” or malicious by default, but if you form a connection with one or more of them, you will experience their presence and power and they will not hold back.

I recommend this book for serious scholars of the occult and of esoteric religion who want to see how Tantra is practiced at street level; most especially, I recommend it for those who feel called to encounter Shakti through bloody Nature and everything that comes along for the ride. You can order your copy directly from the publisher.

Growing Out of Balance

The Neopagan blogosphere tends to place emphasis on notions of “balance” as we near or cross an equinox in the year. Similarly, the spiritual and occult community at large have a tendency to speak in terms of achieving some sort of “balance” between Light and Dark, divine and human, or whatever other dichotomies they happen to acknowledge. Even when speaking about the natural world, we have developed a language of “ecological balance”. This talk all has its place, but we too easily let it mislead us, causing us suffering where it need not.

Here’s the thing: there is no balance in Nature. There is no magic number of grizzly bears and salmon, or ants to aphids to daisies, which will keep everything neat and tidy and allow the whole world to live in peace. If such equilibrium existed, it would have been found by now — not necessarily by us, but by the whole big game of the universe. Earth is one hell of a testing ground, and that balance has almost certainly never existed here. As badly as humans are messing things up in this and the past century or so, other mass extinction events and the like attest to the fact that even without us life would have perpetual challenges of one sort or another. None of this is to justify our failure to learn lessons and find a less destructive place in the world, but even our present trouble makes my major point.

If there is no balance to be found, what are we working toward? Every individual must, of course, work that out for themselves. Your answer will almost certainly not look like mine. Even if we both say something like “spiritual liberation”, we will have to unpack what we mean by that and it may not sound at all alike once the tea is drunk!

When we talk about balance, the real error is falling into a stagnation mindset. The reason why balance doesn’t exist is simply because it can’t for any length of time; as soon as a portion of any system is “balanced”, some other factor will throw it off. Rather than balance, we should be looking for some combination of adaptability and fortitude. The world is dynamic; so should we be. Per the last paragraph, that will have to look different for each of us — and that’s a good thing!

In terms of spiritual or magical practice, the concept of balance does have its place. Franz Bardon, for example, emphasizes a state of “elemental equilibrium” in his first book, Initiation Into Hermetics. This is an excellent pursuit for the beginner, which unfolds into a series of practices collectively expanding and deepening the practitioner’s toolkit and experiences which serve well into later magical exercises. But what Bardon (or perhaps his translators and commentators) do not always make clear enough is just the fact that elemental equilibrium is not a state one achieves but an ongoing dynamic process which we discuss as if it were a state to keep the intention clear in our heads. The elemental equilibrium exercises become part of one’s daily practice, or else merge into other practices which go further. That process of equilibration is not for its own sake; it is only to give oneself as firm a foundation as possible to build higher. But keep in mind that foundations need to be repaired, reinforced, even rebuilt from time to time.

You may at some time need to go to an extreme. Conventional wisdom has it that this could only ever be temporary, seeking to come back to balance in the center after going to one extreme or another to solve a problem. But that may not be the case. It’s entirely possible that instead of going far only to moderate, you will instead force circumstances to meet you at your position and so establish the new “normal” afar off from its original “balance point”. Granted, it is ordinarily desirable to avoid a situation in which one has to throw wide to one side or another; it is painful to go to extremes. But if we are adaptable and resilient, we make a new outpost wherever we must and keep going.

This goes to show that there is no “balanced normal state” from which we depart and to which we aim to return; there is no “original sin” which keeps us from Heaven. That doesn’t mean that equipoise does not exist — but equipoise is of the mind aligning with its own inherent nature. It is, in conventional English, an attitude of choice which becomes more and more natural as we deepen our experience of it. Equipoise is inherently dynamic. It is a way of responding (or not) to the situation as it unfolds, with spontaneity rather than crystallized habits. Our ordinary talk of “nature’s balance” is lazy thinking, leading often to dreams of a time when nothing needs to change anymore. No such time will come in this world. As magicians and Tantrikas, we do not seek such a time and place, but to gradually attain to the insight and power of equipoise within the activity itself, to experience the Divine as the nondual essence of the changing world, and to live the Peace, Freedom, and Happiness which comes of that experience.

As the Autumnal Equinox passes us by and we fall away once again from the lovely balance of light and dark, flowing ever more deeply toward the dark and cold of Winter, let’s enjoy the pivot point and allow it to remind us that change is baked in. Whether we perceive time as linear, cyclical, or helical, it is certainly not stagnant.

Portable Puja: An Adaptable Meditation Practice

As to their spiritual utility, ritual (puja), mantra chanting (japa), and meditation are interchangeable. In terms of Yoga, they are all of one essence and accomplish the same ends: to make deliberate use of prāna (what Franz Bardon calls “vital energy”) within or in relation to our organism to clear out our internal channels and make way for the experience of Sakti; to experience, focus, and integrate Sakti; to purify and concentrate the mind. Whether or not we think of them in these terms, all of these processes require the dissolution of various tensions within the system, both subtle and gross.

When we speak, for instance, of the Kleshas, what we are basically speaking of are certain root-tensions (mūlātati) and the seed from which they sprout (bījātati). Likewise, the “knots” (granthi) of Hatha-Yoga represent tensions in consciousness. In both cases, the trouble begins with mind and spreads to the body. This creates a feedback cycle in which mental tensions cause emotional tensions which cause physiological tensions which exacerbate emotional tensions which deepen mental tensions, and on and on. Tension of any kind is therefore blocked-up prāna which cannot properly move in a healthful or helpful way; whether its task should be constructive or destructive, it will either not be doing its job at all, or will be doing it in a perverse way. And where prāna is blocked, Sakti does not move, either.

In Tibet, the individual ego is often offered to spirits, demons, and protective deities in lieu of blood sacrifice. This serves not only to “feed” the spirits, but also to break down the internal blockages within the practitioner. The practice following is similar. As egotism is recognized in Yoga as one of the Kleshas, but the Kleshas are not limited to the ego, we therefore offer up all tensions and all sources of tension. We thereby include the Kleshas, as well as conditioned behaviors and the fruits of karma.


Simple Internal Puja

Sit in your usual meditation posture, eyes closed. With both hands, touch the tips your forefingers to your thumbs, and rest your hands palm down on your thighs. Breathe easily and slowly with your belly. Follow your breath for a few minutes.

Place your attention as much as possible in your heart center (in the middle of your chest). Visualize there a shrine-like cave, your ishta devatā (your chosen deity, usually the deity at the center of your worship or meditative practice*) enthroned within.

Next, visualize a dhuni (fire pit), as if dug into bare earth, in the space of your navel center (about two finger widths below your belly button and straight back). A steady fire is going in this basin. Maintaining your attention in the cave of your heart, simply watch this fire for a few moments and feel the power emanating from it. (If it helps your concentration, you may imagine the whole scene as a landscape with the fire pit being down a steep slope from the cave entrance, a dense forest surrounding the whole. If this level of visual detail is more distracting for you, leave it out. Experiment to find the best balance for yourself.)

Take a deep breath and hold it (with your belly, not your throat) and mentally say: “I sacrifice all of my tension and all the sources of tension into the dhuni fire.” Release the breath slowly and steadily; as you do, probe your body for any centers of tension, simply bringing a warm attention to them and moving on. Throughout this process, mentally say: “All tension melts like honey mixed with ghee, running into the dhuni.” As you inhale again, mentally say: “As the tension burns away, the pure prāna released rises as an offering to [deity’s name] enthroned in the cave of my heart.” As you exhale again, feel the prāna rising up your central channel from the flame at your navel.

Continue the cycle of breathing for as long as you like: inhale, feeling tension melting into the dhuni and prāna rising from it; exhale, feeling the prāna entering the cave of your heart.

Once you feel sufficiently tension-free, or as if your heart center is as saturated as it can get for now, release all of the visualizations entirely and either focus on the cycle of your breath alone, on the bare attention in your heart center, or else on the fundamental energy of your central channel.


There are many ways to extend this practice. It may be profitably combined with the Double Breath meditation taught by Swami Rudrananda and Swami Khecaranatha, for example, or adapted into a Natha equivalent to tummo with the addition of certain Hatha-Yoga exercises. On its own, however, it already presents a full practice unto itself. Once you have practiced it enough to be able to move through the steps smoothly, this meditation may be done in just a few spare minutes as a relaxation exercise, as well. Any number of other applications may present themselves, and I invite you to comment or get in touch with any you may may come up with.

*Note that if you do not have an ishta devatā, you may certainly approach Lord Siva, Ganapati, or Lord Buddha Sakyamuni. If for any reason you are not comfortable with any of them, a brilliant white light like a tiny sun in the cave of your heart is also suitable.